i was reminded by a new friend that i have studied and trained with the best this year.
my teacher gm rutano, guro lafantaisie, guro denny, guro knaus, guro gelinas, and gm gaje.
also, being able to step onto the mats at the open gathering was a great honor and the subsequent cascade of richness and self discovery as a result of facing that fear was a great blessing.
i still give the majority of my life and time away to my employment situation. as negative a situation as it may seem, i'm able to provide for my family in a way i never though possible.
i will find more time, somewhere and somehow, to train and have made contacts in the mining town i live in to do so. hopefully this opens some doors to study more dbma material ala dvds and perhaps gain a better understanding of what i need to do on at the next gathering.